MY son hates me
and I hate him despite how much i love him
He said he’s nice to people who are nice to him. He said it in a mean way.
He said his dad is nice, never hits him and lets him play video games. Oh and sleeps with him.
His dad has done great damage to my son.
But the fact is, my son has hated me since he was 2. He said he was going to kill me. He would yell and me and slam his fists down at me at restaurants. He threw fits every weekend he was with me. He won’t hear it. Says it’s because of Reiken. But he also blames me. That;s Because he can’t take responsibility for his own actions. He won’t. He refuses. He dragged my jacket all over the dirt and then almost hit me with his fishing pole.
No amount of love hugs, kisses that i give him, when i wake him up when i tuck him in, when i prepare his food, when i buy him things he likes, when i drag myself to his school w/a a 104 fever to turn in his field trip permission slip, when I drive all over town to his therapist and various doctors to get his medicines.
None of that matters to him.
He can only see what he DOESN’T get from me. Because al he cares about is what he wants. cares about no one else. I told him that, as much as I love him, I don’t need to put up with people who bring me down. Who treat me like shit. Who don’t appreciate me. I respect myself too much to put up with that- yes, even from my own son. I don’t deserve that.
He can get out of my life, as much as it hurts.
(And then I really have no one. I can die now).
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The Cave Man(ifesto) | Three New Leaves
I don’t think we are necessarily worse off than our ancestors. Back in the day, any common infection would kill a baby, people croaked at age 50, and horrible crimes have been committed since times unknown. There has always been war and famine- we just didn’t have Twitter or Facebook to let the whole world know.
What I DO know, is that for all the advances, we are certainly no better off than our ancestors, either. All the technology in the world cannot find a missing common sense, fix an inability to manage time, or make anyone give a shit (well, maybe that last one potentially could be remedied with many healthy doses of social awareness… but the person has to have a working conscience first).
Nowadays there is more people to litter the earth, more radiation, more chemicals stuffed in food, more spoiled people, more spoiled people, and did I mention more spoiled people?
That is probably the only thing I could manage bringing from so-called simpler times: wholesome food and pared down fitness, honest morals, and hard work. But you don’t need to look back to an imagined place in time. More than anything humans need to stop, look around, and realize that it’s NOT ABOUT THEM.
1 Going full circle and a win
Flashback to five years ago when I was having to leave the house with kid in tow because the other half of the equation couldn’t handle the noise (or, the distraction). Come rain or shine or snow or flu.
And, you win. Wretched Watchtower, you win! You have taken my family away from me and forced me to come back to your evil claws. If I don’t, I will miss out on family. Nieces. Nephews. 40-year wedding anniversaries. Why? Because I am a wicked evil wrong doer? No. Simply because I Don’t believe your lies. But they do. I give up. No one will ever replace one’s family. Even if they suck. I hate you, Jehovah, and I absolutely abhor your organization. But… It is, what it is. Give in and conform, or be unhappy and alone. Fine. I looooove being brainwashed!!!!
(Jehovah’s witnesses are some of the delusionally self-righteous, close-minded and bigoted group of people In religion today). Did I mention that I hate Jehovah? And dear self-righteous Witness: don’t tell me to “not hate him because of what imperfect men do”… If those imperfect men are claiming to be Jehovah’s mouthpiece; then he is supposedly
Speaking through them… So if I hate the WT, I must have Jejovah too. That jealous, evil, cruel god.
Oh the mistakes we make in life due to poor decisions…
