I’m losing my mind and there’s no one I feel comfortable talking with
I want a job. I desperately want to work and make money again.
Sometimes I can talk a lot. But the reality is that I don’t say much. I don’t really talk to anyone about what goes on in my head, but most of all I don’t REALLY talk about what makes my heart hurt.
And the point is… the center of it all… is the need to feel useful and productive. Of actually accomplishing something and being appropriately rewarded for it. Among other things…
No car No job No money No phone
That’s the status quo of my husband’s ex wife. I figured out a long time ago that people tend to attract the same sort of person over and over again. And I fear I am now on the same path as my husband’s ex-wife and will soon find myself with No job No car No money No phone. Having been at the top of my game, through a series of unfortunate events driven by my poor...
Some people live by the adage of “No Regrets” (though it’s not really an adage because the definition of the word implies that the statement is an universal truth, and this is not the fact here). The thing is, can someone really live with no regrets? I don’t think so. Everyone has regrets, whether they choose to admit it or not. Whether the regrets are too small to be...
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This one made me sad, but it’s a noteworthy video and a catchy song.
Will there be one day.. just one single day… without a struggle?
And so, it dawned on me, that the real key to happiness is to be true to yourself, listen to your heart, be kind, be grateful, and follow your dreams. Without that, you will become withered and your soul will probably die. Do what you want. Be who you are. And above all, you must love yourself.
Stereotypes and racism is alive and well
A man with very poor judgement attempts to squeeze his Ford explorer into a space for a subcompact and strikes another man’s car. Man #1 is from Miami and Man #2 is from Pompano Beach, FL. Man #1 has no insurance and his female companion insists that nothing happened to the car. She tells the man to leave and that she would handle it… BC he was driving without insurance. According to Man #2...
Two curious things happen, both unrelated and of variable circumstance. One curious thing that happens is how easy it becomes to lose faith, trust and hope the older one gets. The other curious thing that happens when one is half-crazy and decides to get off medication, the half-crazy starts to become full-on-crazy. And the craziest part is, that you can almost feel it happening, this...
I want to get better
I really really do. I am better. I am better …
I wish I was a bitch. I can act like a bitch, but in my heart I’m not a bitch because I will feel bad about being a bitch. But I suspect that if I were, in fact, a bitch, I wouldn’t feel so bad so much of the time.
So apparently anti-anxiety medications like the VERY ONES I TAKE may cause memory loss and/or cognitive problems in some people. Granted, this wouldn’t happen to everyone per se, but it is a possible side effect… and…. it explains A LOT. That completely explains the mental fog I’ve felt for the last year or two. My beloved Reiken, you know what I mean. You’ve seen it....
The absence of Prozac
I’ve been on anti-depressants a total of three times in my life (I think), and the last one was the longest run: I took Prozac for at least two years when I was stuck living in Georgia. Before then, it had only been a few weeks or months at a time. Then, I moved back home to Florida and weaned myself off the meds. That was two and a half years ago. The thing is, that this depression thing...