août 2010
15 billets
Anxiety
I wish I could get rid of the anxiety without help. I need to fix my things first…
Being childish
I was looking forward to having my backup at work cover for me today, so I could leave at a reasonable time and be home early enough to spend some time with my family. I don’t feel that way right now… It’s almost like I’d rather just stay out of his way. I can’t keep my other little one away from him tho when I’m not there.
I know he’s just a kid, but he...
Bad morning
“I’d be alright if you and him were out if my life”
I know he was upset and I know he’s just a kid, but I couldntt hold back the tears from the sting of his words.
I don’t want him to be unhappy. I came along and messed up his little world.
Long day
fastsleeper:
Mami is going to have a few long days ahead of her. If we all pitch in we can make things better for her when she comes home. I think if the idea is presented properly the little ones will be more than happy to help. Like Santas little helpers if the work together we can get some stuff done and make Mami’s night easier when she gets home.
Sweetest..
It’s better to have incomplete happiness, because whole and total bliss can be taken away too easily.
Energy is off already. Doesn’t get it.
I really dislike the area
But I really like the house and I get to be with my kid. Tho I won’t see him much because the house is so far from my job. Guiding light, please tell me where to go next.
Living history
There is an old man where I work. And I do mean, that he is OLD. Seems to me that he gets noticeably older every week, much like how children seem to grow overnight or sometimes even right before your eyes. Except backward.
I have only worked here for a little bit over one year. In that year he has lost a considerable amount of weight. His back is more and more twisted upon itself, bending his...
CHAOS
I fear chaos. It unsettles me. Clutter = chaos. I don’t mean to say that I am the cleanest person alive because sometimes I don’t feel like cleaning my bathroom (though, in my defense, I do work some pretty insane hours). I don’t change my sheets but maybe once a month (!). However, an array of miscellaneous things makes me absolutely batty.
I am as much to blame as everyone...
“Lack of Education is the root of all evil”
– Coconut Merengue
Annoying
While in disaccord with my recent attempts at regaining my positive mentality by avoiding all negative thoughts and words about other human beings, I have to say that I find most 20-something-year-olds to be very aggravating and annoying, no matter how charming their fresh view of the world may be.
And yes, I am aware that I was a very annoying 20-something-year-old not too long ago, so I know...
Weekend discoveries
Each weekend I seem to discover something new, or to re-discover something I loved but had long forgotten.
Last week’s new discoveries were Chavela Vargas and Die Form.
This week’s discoveries are: Trio Borinquen Transylvania Restaurant and consequently some really awesome Romanian Food
Re-discoveries for this weekend include: Benazir Bhutto Nawal El Saadawi Salvador Dali The...
light
I gave him all of my light and then there was none for me. Which is ok. Now I have to make my own light once more. I did it once; I can do it again. That was the first step: figuring out what happened.
And I will regain control of my life and do what I want to do and get what I want to get. It’s all in my hands.
